Showing posts with label your amazing self. Show all posts
Showing posts with label your amazing self. Show all posts
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
planet's talkin' bout a revolution
I feel so happy right now. It's amazing. I feel like giggling, or maybe laughing out so loud that i'd give rise to shouts of shut up! from my cousins. I want to jump, i want to dance, i want to hug people. I want you to know that you're such a lovely being, and that you're perfectly amazing as you are right now, with all your flaws. It doesn't matter if something happened to make you think that you're perhaps not thin enough, not fat enough, not tall enough, not smart enough, not funny enough, not happy enough, not interesting enough, not kind enough, not WHATEVER enough. Don't listen to yourself, because YOU. ARE. AMAZING.
I swear to you i mean this; i BELIEVE this. You are amazing. It doesn't matter if you did something the wrong way once and now people are mad at you for that. It doesn't matter if you're in an unhealthy relationship but you find yourself unable to gather the spirit and courage to get out of it. It doesn't matter if you are stuck in a rut, miserable at the tedious humdrum of your life. It doesn't matter if you went on a mediocre date and the guy didn't call back, and you find yourself wondering if you're maybe that unattractive/boring/stupid. It doesn't matter, it truly doesn't. Believe in yourself, because you are absolutely amazing, and i am in love with you, whoever you are, whatever you are, however you are.
Just let go. Zoom OUT. Do you see now, all the insecurities and fears and sadness and pain you are withholding? It's not gold, so why are you keeping that? Let it go. Gingerly, take one step out of that circle of negative energy, and free yourself. You're not really tired, you're just making excuses to let yourself get demotivated, but even that is okay. It's okay to take a break. It's not easy to be inspired all the time, and you don't have to be. Just know that when you're ready, you're ALWAYS welcome to walk outdoors and stand under our amazing blue skies and start receiving. The sky is yours. The earth is yours. Your life is yours.
And you're absolutely amazing.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
choices and such
Howdy, awesome people!
Clearly, it appears that this project (blog) has gone into abandonment -- but i'm not giving up yet! I refuse to remove the link from any of my online profiles despite this site having gone un-updated for weeks, because i know that i still have way to much to learn, and i want to share all of this with you guys. I love this blog, and am thankful for the existence of a space for me to express and expand the best of myself.
Well, yeah, i've been cheating :( i'm sorry guys, but of late, i haven't been being 'love', or grateful, or 'fresh'. No, i haven't been being miserable, neither have i been stricken with negativity, i just seem to be unable to grasp that invigorating sense of energy. It's gone ... somewhere, and this has been preventing me from signing into this account and updating.
So i wait for it to return -- the power. I wait to be inspired again.

Today, here i am, and i have something to say (!). Just recently i was granted the privilege of choice, yet again. Now, i am eternally grateful for the fact that i have always been fortunate enough to choose how i want to direct my days and my life -- i get to chose what to wear and how to present myself, i get to chose what i want to do with myself (although i admit, i barely have an inkling of that), i get to chose what of my favorite food i want to eat later, etcetera.
But this is a different kind of 'choice'. This one here that i have on my lap, this is scary. This is a dilemma, and the reality of it is that this is the kind of choice that, if chosen wrongly, would be looked upon with regret for many, many years to come in the future.
What if i regret my decision? How am i to face everyone else after this? What if i don't get what i want? What if i'm letting go of something invaluable? What if i hate myself for this?
Yesterday, i cracked my head trying to figure out what i wanted. It kept me from sleeping, and had me feeling nervous the entire day.
Today, i realized that there's really no need for me to be so torn up over this. I have been terrifying and doubting myself in so many ways that it has already taken a turn towards negativity, and that is simply not sustainable at all --which is why i'm going to let go. I haven't come to a decision yet, but i am not going to be afraid anymore.

And i will not regret my decision. Because regret is only a fantasy that your insecurities craft, a nightmare of sorts, a song that you sing to yourself when you are unhappy or dissatisfied with your current environment -- and it never helps a single thing. Three years from now, wherever i find myself then, regardless of what i have chosen this week, i have faith that it is nothing but meant to be. All this while i was trying to protect myself from the regret that i would potentially feel, but today, i see that this is ridiculous. This is life, there is no right or wrong decision, everything just is.
So, all you awesome people, i haven't been around much, but i have something to tell you -- don't regret anything, ever. Yeah, so things could have been different. You could be living in a bigger house right now, be married to a different person, have a different certificate of your degree, etc. Your life could have taken on millions of different paths, but open up your eyes. Take a look around at the room you are in, and the people you are now surrounded with -- this is where it has led you, and this is where you are now.
Regret ain't gonna change a thing. And it's such a pain in the ass.
Let it go. Your life is perfect. Believe it.
With much lurve,
J ♥
Clearly, it appears that this project (blog) has gone into abandonment -- but i'm not giving up yet! I refuse to remove the link from any of my online profiles despite this site having gone un-updated for weeks, because i know that i still have way to much to learn, and i want to share all of this with you guys. I love this blog, and am thankful for the existence of a space for me to express and expand the best of myself.
Well, yeah, i've been cheating :( i'm sorry guys, but of late, i haven't been being 'love', or grateful, or 'fresh'. No, i haven't been being miserable, neither have i been stricken with negativity, i just seem to be unable to grasp that invigorating sense of energy. It's gone ... somewhere, and this has been preventing me from signing into this account and updating.
So i wait for it to return -- the power. I wait to be inspired again.

Today, here i am, and i have something to say (!). Just recently i was granted the privilege of choice, yet again. Now, i am eternally grateful for the fact that i have always been fortunate enough to choose how i want to direct my days and my life -- i get to chose what to wear and how to present myself, i get to chose what i want to do with myself (although i admit, i barely have an inkling of that), i get to chose what of my favorite food i want to eat later, etcetera.
But this is a different kind of 'choice'. This one here that i have on my lap, this is scary. This is a dilemma, and the reality of it is that this is the kind of choice that, if chosen wrongly, would be looked upon with regret for many, many years to come in the future.
What if i regret my decision? How am i to face everyone else after this? What if i don't get what i want? What if i'm letting go of something invaluable? What if i hate myself for this?
Yesterday, i cracked my head trying to figure out what i wanted. It kept me from sleeping, and had me feeling nervous the entire day.
Today, i realized that there's really no need for me to be so torn up over this. I have been terrifying and doubting myself in so many ways that it has already taken a turn towards negativity, and that is simply not sustainable at all --which is why i'm going to let go. I haven't come to a decision yet, but i am not going to be afraid anymore.

So, all you awesome people, i haven't been around much, but i have something to tell you -- don't regret anything, ever. Yeah, so things could have been different. You could be living in a bigger house right now, be married to a different person, have a different certificate of your degree, etc. Your life could have taken on millions of different paths, but open up your eyes. Take a look around at the room you are in, and the people you are now surrounded with -- this is where it has led you, and this is where you are now.
Regret ain't gonna change a thing. And it's such a pain in the ass.
Let it go. Your life is perfect. Believe it.
With much lurve,
J ♥
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Reminders
I am not ignoring you, pain, I am being with you, but not letting you take me, all of me. You can not have 100% of my focus. I will not re-act through my pain, I will act more consciously from my heart and soul.
You may have taken me over for some time, but you have reminded me that I want to be Love in every moment. You have reminded my that to be inspiring is to be inspired. You moved me to pause and notice the beauty that surrounds me and that is inside me.
Pain, you showed me a lot and now you are gone. You may be coming right back, but that is okay, I will now take you as a reminder to show me who I want to be even in the face of pain.
Precisely. Thank you, Tricia :)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Gratitude Journal : For life that keeps on going
Gooood morning, people!
I'm back for good this time :) actually, i've been back for almost a week, but slipped into a nasty procrastination phase regarding this blog. Sorry :C (i'm hoping that) this post will kickstart the resurrection of this blog to regular posts, as i can feel myself needing that positivity buzz again.
So what's been happening while i was away? Lots, apparently. So many events, environmental and otherwise. And much has been happening within myself too, sometimes creating the illusion of conflict and unrest in my soul -- but all is well. Us living our lives is like a process unfolding itself, and everything that happens is all part of the process, anyway -- and what an amazing process this is.
In the past one and a half months i have found myself caught in one too many unpleasant situations that caused me much frustration. More often than not i questioned myself and let doubt take over my thoughts. Why am i here? Beyond that, i even started believing this self-doubt and began drawing out my own conclusions -- this is such a waste of time; there's no point to all of this! I hate it here... and then all these negative thoughts festered into something else that made me so miserable....
....until i realized that i was just resisting -- and in resisting, i was making myself unhappy and blind to the beauty of what was around me. And that is the most important thing that i have learnt thus far -- that it is crucial for us to learn to adapt to the situation that we are put in so that we can move on past what we think we see to what really is - that every moment is perfect, and nothing is ever really pointless, and that we just have to trust.
I have so much to blog about -- about National Service and camp, and the airplanes that roam the Paya Indah skies, and the bonds that are created there, and the incredible highs and lows (that i experienced). But for now i simply resolve to relax. And slow down. And stop chewing so fast, or making rash decisions, or run through my day like there's no tomorrow. In fact, i challenge myself to slow down, as that's what it's turning out to be. I become antsy and nervous and insecure should i find myself with too much free time on my hands, and that ain't right. Like a friend at camp said, you're only 18 this year, what is 3 more weeks of your life anyway?
And that applies to you, even if you're 25, or 35, or 45, or 55. You're still young, believe me. Slow down, and enjoy the moments. Live. Listen. I wish i had, when that friend dispensed that particular piece of advise to me at the time.
Stay amazing you all, till the next post :)
I'm back for good this time :) actually, i've been back for almost a week, but slipped into a nasty procrastination phase regarding this blog. Sorry :C (i'm hoping that) this post will kickstart the resurrection of this blog to regular posts, as i can feel myself needing that positivity buzz again.
So what's been happening while i was away? Lots, apparently. So many events, environmental and otherwise. And much has been happening within myself too, sometimes creating the illusion of conflict and unrest in my soul -- but all is well. Us living our lives is like a process unfolding itself, and everything that happens is all part of the process, anyway -- and what an amazing process this is.
In the past one and a half months i have found myself caught in one too many unpleasant situations that caused me much frustration. More often than not i questioned myself and let doubt take over my thoughts. Why am i here? Beyond that, i even started believing this self-doubt and began drawing out my own conclusions -- this is such a waste of time; there's no point to all of this! I hate it here... and then all these negative thoughts festered into something else that made me so miserable....
....until i realized that i was just resisting -- and in resisting, i was making myself unhappy and blind to the beauty of what was around me. And that is the most important thing that i have learnt thus far -- that it is crucial for us to learn to adapt to the situation that we are put in so that we can move on past what we think we see to what really is - that every moment is perfect, and nothing is ever really pointless, and that we just have to trust.
I have so much to blog about -- about National Service and camp, and the airplanes that roam the Paya Indah skies, and the bonds that are created there, and the incredible highs and lows (that i experienced). But for now i simply resolve to relax. And slow down. And stop chewing so fast, or making rash decisions, or run through my day like there's no tomorrow. In fact, i challenge myself to slow down, as that's what it's turning out to be. I become antsy and nervous and insecure should i find myself with too much free time on my hands, and that ain't right. Like a friend at camp said, you're only 18 this year, what is 3 more weeks of your life anyway?
And that applies to you, even if you're 25, or 35, or 45, or 55. You're still young, believe me. Slow down, and enjoy the moments. Live. Listen. I wish i had, when that friend dispensed that particular piece of advise to me at the time.
Stay amazing you all, till the next post :)
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
Food for your spirit
The Invitation
It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.
It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.
By Oriah, who can be found here and here.
(source)
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Honestly?
In six hours time i will leave for National Service. I will get on a bus and head off to a place where i will have no access to the internet, which also happens to be the source that reaffirms every "Awesome" principle in me. A real challenge for myself, because then i will have to be my own source.
At first i resisted, and i was miserable. But why was i resisting? As i thought about it, it came to me that i was afraid. In fact, i was terrified. In this world that i have created for myself, everything stems on connectivity, and social networking sites, and cell phones. To let it all go would be to risk missing out on outings and events. To let go would be to risk being left behind. What if i came back, and friends no longer called me out for events? What if i came back, and they had progressed on so much further than i can catch up on?
And then there's a whole new parade of other worries: what if all of my camp mates were to be unfriendly? What if none of them like me? But here is what's making me a tad bit uncomfortable -- all the what if's. Where's my trust? I was getting so hung up on all these worries that it ate away at me, when in fact i had no control over any of it, at all. Funnily, i completely fooled myself thinking that i could somehow change the outcome of things, when in truth i am in control of absolutely NOTHING at all. After all, i'm just here for the ride.
(and so are you)
So let go i shall. Tomorrow i will get on that bus and let it bring me to a strange place, surrounded by strangers. To be real, i still am a little fearful, but it is slowly peeling away, layer after layer.
I am ready now, so let's get going.
And I'll be back in no time. Till then, you have to stay true to your DNA, and be the truly amazing self that you are :)
Letting go, frees. Resistance binds.
At first i resisted, and i was miserable. But why was i resisting? As i thought about it, it came to me that i was afraid. In fact, i was terrified. In this world that i have created for myself, everything stems on connectivity, and social networking sites, and cell phones. To let it all go would be to risk missing out on outings and events. To let go would be to risk being left behind. What if i came back, and friends no longer called me out for events? What if i came back, and they had progressed on so much further than i can catch up on?
And then there's a whole new parade of other worries: what if all of my camp mates were to be unfriendly? What if none of them like me? But here is what's making me a tad bit uncomfortable -- all the what if's. Where's my trust? I was getting so hung up on all these worries that it ate away at me, when in fact i had no control over any of it, at all. Funnily, i completely fooled myself thinking that i could somehow change the outcome of things, when in truth i am in control of absolutely NOTHING at all. After all, i'm just here for the ride.
(and so are you)
So let go i shall. Tomorrow i will get on that bus and let it bring me to a strange place, surrounded by strangers. To be real, i still am a little fearful, but it is slowly peeling away, layer after layer.
I am ready now, so let's get going.
And I'll be back in no time. Till then, you have to stay true to your DNA, and be the truly amazing self that you are :)
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Winds of change

I realize that i am quite the inconsistent one. Sometimes i blog of not giving up, of persevering till the end; but sometimes i, too, blog of oneness -- in which it is okay to be yourself, to live in every now moment, to be happy, to not try so hard. What, then, am i trying to say?
I suppose that as much as this blog is about you, it is also very much about me :) i enjoy living in every Now moment. I have dreams to chase. I love the thrill of chasing dreams. Therefore, to be happy, i try too hard while enjoying every moment of it. And that all applies to me. It is important to know that this varies with each person, so what can i say but that it all boils down to this core point -- that ultimately, your happiness and contentment is paramount. Do what feels right, because if you do, everything will be okay in the end.
Have trust.
Yesterday, i got a letter that completely altered my track of thoughts and plans, simply because i was not expecting it. In less than two days time, i will be called to a place where there is absolutely no internet connection, and cell phones are only allowed during the weekends. I will be in this place for more than two months, with no Facebook, no Twitter, no MSN or Skype, no familiar bathroom or bed or friends. My first instinct was to rebel, to go against this. I don't want to go.
Then i realized that i was resisting it -- the flow of life. I love the ways of my life so much, and i have gotten very much used to the warm comfort that familiarity brings me, which only served to enforce my unwillingness to step out off my comfort zone and see what new things this letter has to offer me. In holding on so tightly to the easy ways of my life, i was closing myself off from a whole new world of possibilities. When i shut my eyes, turn my back, and shout no without a second thought, what else am i saying no to? New friends? New interests? New perspectives? New passions? New opportunities?

When i finally realized all of this, i allowed myself to let go. I let myself go with the flow. I will go where time brings me. I will take what life gives to me. I mean, who knows right? Why not, anyway?
If you should catch yourself saying no to something on impulse, perhaps it is time to reconsider. Think about it. What are you resisting? Why are you resisting? And most importantly, in saying no, what else are you REALLY saying no to?
I would not waste my life in friction when it could be turned into momentum.
~Frances Willard
Monday, March 15, 2010
Hold your horses!
Howdy, great people :)
Imagine this -- you're going to the movies. You enter the theater, sink into your cushioned seat with your bucket of popcorn in one hand and drink in the other, and begin to relax. Ten minutes into the movie, a faint, ebbing, horribly familiar sensation starts to tingle within yourself. This sensation gets stronger, and in twenty minutes you can't help but face the cold, crushing reality --- you need to pee.

You force yourself to suppress the urge, because even though god forbid you find yourself sitting in a pool of stale yellow piss in the middle of the cinema, you just don't want to miss any part of the movie. So you hold it thirty minutes...and another thirty minutes... and another thirty minutes... and the movie never seems to end! You almost want to give up and just go to the toilet but really, isn't the show finishing soon already? Why miss the ending?
Such a situation was one i found myself caught in yesterday, and amidst all that, it struck me how uncanny it was that the hardships we face in life are similar to the bladders that torment us while we sit in the cinema.
For example, yesterday
(1) the show seemed like it was never gonna end
(2) it took constant reminding of myself that the show was too good to miss
(3) i, in the end, chose to stay in the theater and finish the show.
On one hand the actors were utterly amazing and the story was fascinating, but on the other hand my insides were threatening to explode all over the audience!
And horrible are the crucial moments after the show where you dash to the toilet to find that you're not the first one there, and your destination is so close yet so far, and again you nearly give up and wet yourself, but really, you can't. So you stand there and entertain the creeping sensation that your brain is about to explode, suffering, before you reach your sanctuary that is the toilet bowl and wunderbar! the most amazing sensation comes over you and you are filled with the gratifying sense of euphoria, because not only did you finish your movie, you also did not wet yourself in the process!

Which is how certain challenges and hardships we face are. Sometimes shit happens and you can't see the end of the tunnel, and hopelessness and despair takes over, and you're about to lose focus and tell yourself that really, maybe it isn't that worth it, just so you can get out of here and stop the madness.
But halt!
Here is where you take a pause, and breathe. And smile. And remember that your pot of gold is patiently awaiting you at the end of it all. And realize that your goals are truly worth all the hardships that threaten to bring you down. And know that all of these is making you stronger by the day. And understand that you're the one that chose to be in the situation you are in. And that you can get out of there anytime you like. But you're still there, because you chose to stay.
And remember, that when you survive through it all, the feeling that overcomes you is going to be as great as when you release the contents of your spilling bladder after holding it for several hours. In fact, it might be even greater, too ;)
Imagine this -- you're going to the movies. You enter the theater, sink into your cushioned seat with your bucket of popcorn in one hand and drink in the other, and begin to relax. Ten minutes into the movie, a faint, ebbing, horribly familiar sensation starts to tingle within yourself. This sensation gets stronger, and in twenty minutes you can't help but face the cold, crushing reality --- you need to pee.

You force yourself to suppress the urge, because even though god forbid you find yourself sitting in a pool of stale yellow piss in the middle of the cinema, you just don't want to miss any part of the movie. So you hold it thirty minutes...and another thirty minutes... and another thirty minutes... and the movie never seems to end! You almost want to give up and just go to the toilet but really, isn't the show finishing soon already? Why miss the ending?
Such a situation was one i found myself caught in yesterday, and amidst all that, it struck me how uncanny it was that the hardships we face in life are similar to the bladders that torment us while we sit in the cinema.
For example, yesterday
(1) the show seemed like it was never gonna end
(2) it took constant reminding of myself that the show was too good to miss
(3) i, in the end, chose to stay in the theater and finish the show.
On one hand the actors were utterly amazing and the story was fascinating, but on the other hand my insides were threatening to explode all over the audience!
And horrible are the crucial moments after the show where you dash to the toilet to find that you're not the first one there, and your destination is so close yet so far, and again you nearly give up and wet yourself, but really, you can't. So you stand there and entertain the creeping sensation that your brain is about to explode, suffering, before you reach your sanctuary that is the toilet bowl and wunderbar! the most amazing sensation comes over you and you are filled with the gratifying sense of euphoria, because not only did you finish your movie, you also did not wet yourself in the process!

SUCCESS!
Which is how certain challenges and hardships we face are. Sometimes shit happens and you can't see the end of the tunnel, and hopelessness and despair takes over, and you're about to lose focus and tell yourself that really, maybe it isn't that worth it, just so you can get out of here and stop the madness.
But halt!
Here is where you take a pause, and breathe. And smile. And remember that your pot of gold is patiently awaiting you at the end of it all. And realize that your goals are truly worth all the hardships that threaten to bring you down. And know that all of these is making you stronger by the day. And understand that you're the one that chose to be in the situation you are in. And that you can get out of there anytime you like. But you're still there, because you chose to stay.

And what shouldn't you ever forget? :)
And remember, that when you survive through it all, the feeling that overcomes you is going to be as great as when you release the contents of your spilling bladder after holding it for several hours. In fact, it might be even greater, too ;)
Sunday, March 07, 2010
Smile Today (and tomorrow) (and tomorrow)
Hellooooooo~ :D
Today while i was busy tending to my part-time job, i got back from my break and, out of nowhere, felt myself fill up with joy. It probably sounds like i'm off my rocker to announce that i suddenly, for absolutely no particular reason at all, felt so happy and light and absolutely free, but yeah, that's what happened.
I wanted to dance. I wanted to burst into song. I wanted to skip. I wanted to grab the next poor fellow that walked past and swing him/her around~
It was awe-summm.
Your job sucks? (Mine does) Perfect! Your boy/girlfriend just cheated on you? Fabulous! Your boss' favorite pastime is to watch you suffer? B-E-A-utiful. Stuck in traffic for literally hours on end? JOY! So your life sucks. So what?! Nobody said it would be easy, and if everything went your way -- well, it wouldn't be as satisfying in the end when everything fell into place, would it? So just take it easy, kick back, and have a nice, good, hearty laugh -- on the house.
You're gorgeous when you smile.
You're beautiful when you laugh.
So what's stopping you?
Be love ♥
Today while i was busy tending to my part-time job, i got back from my break and, out of nowhere, felt myself fill up with joy. It probably sounds like i'm off my rocker to announce that i suddenly, for absolutely no particular reason at all, felt so happy and light and absolutely free, but yeah, that's what happened.
I wanted to dance. I wanted to burst into song. I wanted to skip. I wanted to grab the next poor fellow that walked past and swing him/her around~
It was awe-summm.
Your job sucks? (Mine does) Perfect! Your boy/girlfriend just cheated on you? Fabulous! Your boss' favorite pastime is to watch you suffer? B-E-A-utiful. Stuck in traffic for literally hours on end? JOY! So your life sucks. So what?! Nobody said it would be easy, and if everything went your way -- well, it wouldn't be as satisfying in the end when everything fell into place, would it? So just take it easy, kick back, and have a nice, good, hearty laugh -- on the house.
You're gorgeous when you smile.
You're beautiful when you laugh.
So what's stopping you?
Be love ♥
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
positive vibrations
Natasya Falina = Giving it back to make you smile says:
hahaahh ya well it'll be fine!!!
u can be positive
start jumping around
and scream happy happy happy
weeeee~
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Real power is the quiet but certain understanding that everything that comes to us works for the good of us, no matter what it is.
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“If everything seems under control, you're just not going fast enough.”
hahaahh ya well it'll be fine!!!
u can be positive
start jumping around
and scream happy happy happy
weeeee~
.

"From places thought impossible to stand -- here we are."
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Real power is the quiet but certain understanding that everything that comes to us works for the good of us, no matter what it is.
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“If everything seems under control, you're just not going fast enough.”
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Stargazers
“Pure logic is the ruin of the spirit.”
Antoine de Saint-Exupery
I believe that when we are born we are all essentially dreamers. We create dreams, and we carry hope, and we form ideals that we hold precariously in our hearts. We start off as visionaries, overflowing with bubbly anticipation and excitement, fully prepared to jump into the future and seize the skies with our bare hands. Somewhere along the way, however, some people lose it. Dreams fall apart into worn out pieces and ideals get crushed.
The world that we live in now demands that we conform to a set of rules that "adults" should live by. As it turns out, there are "rights" and "wrongs" in the cars we chose to drive, or the jobs we take, the words we say, and the things we do. Their cutting glance or scornful word will sear at you, and soon you find yourself letting go a little, simply to comply and to accomodate their expectations.
But really, who are these people to determine the validity of the choices you make? What gave them the right to place value on the way you chose to live your days? The very grounds with which they decide right and wrong is based on their views, their perceptions, their opinions, and there's no one who can truly say that they are "right". Not everything in life is just in black and white, and there is no right or wrong. Everything just is, and from my point of view, all you've got is right Now, so why not just enjoy the ride?
Don't be a burnt out star. Believe in your dreams, because you're the only one who can. There's nothing sadder than a person who loses his own ideals.
Be amazing because you can.
I believe in you.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
You Can't Help It

The key to my heart forgives and trusts.
The key to my heart has hope that is indestructible.
The key to my heart knows it will one day be found.
(source)
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Daily Encouragement
From Daisaku Ikeda, the president of the Soka Gakkai International, a Buddhist network that aims at promoting peace, culture and education through personal transformation and social contribution. Awesome!
Inspired people don't get bored, trapped in their own mind-constructed cages. They explore their environment for everything amazing that has yet to be experienced, and then they go ahead and experience it all.
Do lead inspired existences! After all, that's what we were all meant to do :)
"Unless we live fully right now, not sometime in the future, true fulfillment in life will forever elude us. Rather than putting things off till the future, we should find meaning in life, thinking and doing what is most important right now, right where we are -- setting our hearts aflame and igniting our lives. Otherwise, we cannot lead an inspired existence."One of what i constantly crave to be, other than Love, is to be Inspired. Inspired people see light in everything. Inspired people are passionate, and it doesn't matter in whatever, really, because what it all comes down to is this -- the moment that you become impassioned is the moment that you come to life.
Inspired people don't get bored, trapped in their own mind-constructed cages. They explore their environment for everything amazing that has yet to be experienced, and then they go ahead and experience it all.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Reminder to myself
Today, in complete innocence, I pulled on my one and only Beatles tee and walked out of my home, mind and spirit still very much asleep. Halfway throughout my class though, I got a well-timed awakening.
Call it an epiphany if you will, but I've been going through some down times recently, and very much needed some Awesome reaffirming in myself. Maybe it was the caffeine rush that helped boost this, but I am truly grateful to say that I (right Now) embody the spirit of Living In Every Now Moment.
This equates to what you have now, what you have been going through recently, all your rough patches, everything that didn't work out, all that you want, all that you cannot get -- it all constitutes your Now moment, and it is all perfect.
Because you're here now, and everything must have fallen into place perfectly.
Are we riding the same wave, here?
Please do surround yourself with love today. ~
<3
Call it an epiphany if you will, but I've been going through some down times recently, and very much needed some Awesome reaffirming in myself. Maybe it was the caffeine rush that helped boost this, but I am truly grateful to say that I (right Now) embody the spirit of Living In Every Now Moment.
This equates to what you have now, what you have been going through recently, all your rough patches, everything that didn't work out, all that you want, all that you cannot get -- it all constitutes your Now moment, and it is all perfect.
Because you're here now, and everything must have fallen into place perfectly.
Are we riding the same wave, here?
There's nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
• It's easy. •
• It's easy. •
Please do surround yourself with love today. ~
<3
Monday, February 01, 2010
Taking it easy
When i was younger, i had this circle of girlfriends who probably weren't the most sincere ones around. Yet they were the only friends i had, and i was terrified at the idea of them hating me. Paranoia struck when i'd see them talking amongst themselves. Fears would escalate should they shoot me a look out of the corner of their eyes, amidst the brushing shoulders and conspiratorial whispers. Then i would walk over, shoulders stiff with posed nonchalance, only to experience knotting insides when they would fall silent, staring at me with a challenging eye. Why are you coming here? What do you think you're doing?
Then i would go home, thoughts stretched out like tight covers, stifling and icy cold. I'd get so worried, it felt like my nerves were fried. Maybe i shouldn't have said that earlier. Maybe i shouldn't have made that joke. Maybe they're all bitching about me right now. Maybe they hate me.
What is wrong with me?
The only way i knew how to dealt with it was to confront them straight out -- probably not the wisest idea. I can only imagine how being asked "do you hate me?" or "do you find me annoying?" or something else to that effect, every day, could be so annoying.
I moved on to another school after that, to another circle of friends who didn't huddle up with hushed tones and cold eyes. They never fell silent when i walked near, and even if they did, i knew it was probably because they were playfully scheming for something in good nature. My insecure habits from before did trail into the present time then, and till today they still remind me of how i used to ask so earnestly, "Tell the truth okay... Do you hate me?"
In hindsight, the old friends were probably not insincere. The idea of them hating me was, after all, just an idea that grew into something that haunted my every thought, action and spoken word. It turned into a belief that was based on nothing but the workings of my frenzied mind. If i had just relaxed and been myself, everything would've been so much better. Less time spent being worried about whether or not people like me, more time spent HAVING FUN. Hello?
So, today's lesson can be summed up in a very apt post from Bushwalla's blog.
It's all in your mind :)
You don't have to pretend to be someone you are not. After all, your most amazing self surfaces when you are being yourself, and not who you THINK you should be. You, yourself, are awesome enough as it is. Why are you messing with the flow?
Chill out.
Then i would go home, thoughts stretched out like tight covers, stifling and icy cold. I'd get so worried, it felt like my nerves were fried. Maybe i shouldn't have said that earlier. Maybe i shouldn't have made that joke. Maybe they're all bitching about me right now. Maybe they hate me.
What is wrong with me?
The only way i knew how to dealt with it was to confront them straight out -- probably not the wisest idea. I can only imagine how being asked "do you hate me?" or "do you find me annoying?" or something else to that effect, every day, could be so annoying.
I moved on to another school after that, to another circle of friends who didn't huddle up with hushed tones and cold eyes. They never fell silent when i walked near, and even if they did, i knew it was probably because they were playfully scheming for something in good nature. My insecure habits from before did trail into the present time then, and till today they still remind me of how i used to ask so earnestly, "Tell the truth okay... Do you hate me?"
In hindsight, the old friends were probably not insincere. The idea of them hating me was, after all, just an idea that grew into something that haunted my every thought, action and spoken word. It turned into a belief that was based on nothing but the workings of my frenzied mind. If i had just relaxed and been myself, everything would've been so much better. Less time spent being worried about whether or not people like me, more time spent HAVING FUN. Hello?
So, today's lesson can be summed up in a very apt post from Bushwalla's blog.
It's all in your mind :)
You don't have to pretend to be someone you are not. After all, your most amazing self surfaces when you are being yourself, and not who you THINK you should be. You, yourself, are awesome enough as it is. Why are you messing with the flow?
Chill out.
Friday, January 22, 2010
Randy Pausch
...is an incredible man.
The Last Lecture : Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams, was delivered by Randy Pausch after he had been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer. And this was what made this hour-long lecture so fascinating to me right from the start. Because, despite the fact that this man had already been given a death sentence ["he was told in August 2007 to expect a remaining three to six months of good health"], he still maintained such a remarkably humorous and upbeat personality, the positivity he held clearly emanating off him as he spoke.
Randy Pausch died in July 2008, less than a year after he delivered his "Last Lecture", yet with his video up and his book in the stores, he doesn't cease to inspire.

One thing he spoke of that's stuck with me is this : -- "the brick walls are there for a reason. They let us prove how badly we want things."
He further stressed, "they're there not to stop us, but to stop the people who don't want those things enough."
"They help us show our dedication; to separate us from the people who don't really want to achieve their childhood dreams."
Which requires no elaboration, cause the words he chose really speak for themselves. They provide a sound way to look at the things that are stopping us in life; a refreshing reminder for us to never give up -- a brand new perspective.
You know how to dream, to desire, to want things -- but how far are you prepared to go to get these things that you want? Are you ready to get out of your comfort zone to achieve these things? How much of yourself are you willing to give -- and this is in terms of effort and time and passion? If you get not what you want, then perhaps you are not giving enough. You probably don't want what you think you want enough.
Sometimes when we decide to approach something, we chose a method that we decide is the best, and then we get so deep into it that when it doesn't work out, we think that all is lost. But that isn't it. There are so many ways to get what you want -- whatever it is -- and just because the way that you think is best doesn't work out, doesn't mean all else won't either.
Think about it. When you hit a dead end, it's not the end. If you fail at getting your dream job, or your ideal scholarship, or admission into your chosen university, it is not the end.
Your journey isn't over.
It's only over when you say it's over. And that's the most beautiful part of it all -- it's your call.
It's all up to you.
Entirely.
Stay awesome, all.
(source)
The Last Lecture : Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams, was delivered by Randy Pausch after he had been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer. And this was what made this hour-long lecture so fascinating to me right from the start. Because, despite the fact that this man had already been given a death sentence ["he was told in August 2007 to expect a remaining three to six months of good health"], he still maintained such a remarkably humorous and upbeat personality, the positivity he held clearly emanating off him as he spoke.
Randy Pausch died in July 2008, less than a year after he delivered his "Last Lecture", yet with his video up and his book in the stores, he doesn't cease to inspire.

One thing he spoke of that's stuck with me is this : -- "the brick walls are there for a reason. They let us prove how badly we want things."
He further stressed, "they're there not to stop us, but to stop the people who don't want those things enough."
"They help us show our dedication; to separate us from the people who don't really want to achieve their childhood dreams."
Which requires no elaboration, cause the words he chose really speak for themselves. They provide a sound way to look at the things that are stopping us in life; a refreshing reminder for us to never give up -- a brand new perspective.
You know how to dream, to desire, to want things -- but how far are you prepared to go to get these things that you want? Are you ready to get out of your comfort zone to achieve these things? How much of yourself are you willing to give -- and this is in terms of effort and time and passion? If you get not what you want, then perhaps you are not giving enough. You probably don't want what you think you want enough.
Sometimes when we decide to approach something, we chose a method that we decide is the best, and then we get so deep into it that when it doesn't work out, we think that all is lost. But that isn't it. There are so many ways to get what you want -- whatever it is -- and just because the way that you think is best doesn't work out, doesn't mean all else won't either.
Think about it. When you hit a dead end, it's not the end. If you fail at getting your dream job, or your ideal scholarship, or admission into your chosen university, it is not the end.
Your journey isn't over.
It's only over when you say it's over. And that's the most beautiful part of it all -- it's your call.
It's all up to you.
Entirely.
Stay awesome, all.
(source)
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Sneeze!

The act of sneezing, as defined by www.thefreedictionary.com is,
to expel air forcibly from the mouth and nose in an explosive, spasmodic involuntary action resulting chiefly from irritation of the nasal mucous membrane.Which sounds pretty awesome, actually. If we all reacted in explosive, spasmodic and involuntary ways following a disruption of regularity -- well, life would surely be a little bit more unpredictable, eh?
(considering we don't cross the line, of course)

Look at this one go!
According to Wikipedia,
A sneeze is a semi-autonomous, convulsive expulsion of air from the lungs through the nose and mouth, usually caused by foreign particles irritating the nasal mucosa.
During a sneeze, the soft palate and uvula depress while the back of the tongue elevates to partially close the passage to the mouth so that air ejected from the lungs may be expelled through the nose. Because the closing of the mouth is partial, a considerable amount of this air is usually also expelled from the mouth.
It triggers the release of histamines, which irritate the nerve cells in the nose, resulting in signals being sent to the brain to initiate the sneeze through the trigeminal nerve network. The brain then relates this initial signal, activates the pharyngeal and tracheal muscles and creates a large opening of the nasal and oral cavities, resulting in a powerful release of air and bioparticles. The powerful sneeze is attributed to its involvement of numerous organs of the upper body – it is a reflexive response involving the face, throat, and chest muscles

Or you could just take a look at it from the Awesome way and finally realize that each time you convulsively, explosively and involuntarily expel air from your lungs, someone out there is missing you. Like crazy.
Yeah, read it. Process it. Go through the words repeatedly in your head. And then believe it.
Fun facts galore!
-In Ancient Greece, people considered sneezes to be prophetic signs from the Gods they worshiped.-In Europe, way back in the Middle Ages, people believed sneezing to be fatal (hence the numerous god bless you!s that fill the air following a sneeze).
-In Nepal, sneezers are believed to be remembered by someone at that particular moment.
Let's all be Nepalese, in terms of sneezes.
Good day, all ;)
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Spread the love
Today, see if you can stretch your heart and expand your love so that it touches not only those to whom you can give it easily, but also those who need it so much.
- Daphne Rose Kingma
Goooood day everybody!
Here's today's challenge for you all -- be love. I first heard of this from Jason Mraz's blog, and i wasn't really sure of what the man was talking about. To be love? I mean, i know how to love, but to be love? Well, i don't much know how do i define being love, so here it is from the man himself :
“Be Love” is a bold declaration. It’s about choosing kindness over being right. It’s about cutting out the conditions in which you might think are required for love and going straight to the source, or rather, being the source yourself, that which is Love, unconditional.
When a friend or family member wrongs me (albeit unintentionally), i find it necessary to battle it out till the end, until everyone -- most of all said friend or family member itself -- knows that i am right.
When someone isn't generous enough to me yet expects me to be a completely giving person right back, i become compelled to shun that person right in their face.
When someone says "no" to my request, i get mad and prepare myself to reject that person at their next request of me.
Well, that ain't right. The alternative to entertaining this inane desire to be right all the time is to just take a step back and look at things from a wider perspective, because ultimately at the end of the day, when i am right, the only person who is happy is -- well let's face it -- me. And even most of the time this twisted satisfaction of mine has an underlying guilt to it because now there is a strained vibe to the air -- because of me.
It isn't necessary to be right all the time; to "win" every time. After all, with all the uneasiness/unhappiness caused, the satisfaction i get becomes nothing but a cheap thrill that will be forgotten all too soon -- and then what is the point? The perfect words to sum this up is that "it all amounts to nothing in the end". If all we have is right now, then why do we want to make these Now moments miserable ones?
So i have made it one of my resolutions this year to Be Love, and it will be a challenge. I will have to face off with the Selfish in me everyday, especially when it catches me unaware. It will be tricky. It will be awesome :)
Questions of the day. Will you yourself partake in this challenge to become a transformed person? And how will you go about it?
With love ♥
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Exercise your imagination
Sometimes, i fall off my wave of positivity and get hit by certain thoughts and doubts that make me question my own goals and capabilities, and i begin to wonder if i'm stretching myself too thin. Can i really achieve this much? What if i don't do it well?
These are my down times, and i begin to crawl back into my shell, threatened by uncertainty and the absence of conviction. But not too soon i realize that it's all my mind. It is ultimately the mind that tricks you into thinking that you're not good enough for certain things, that tells you to lower your goals, that tells you to be "realistic". In the end, it is the mind that stops you from being your most amazing self.
Let's be truthful with ourselves here. We're not meant to be realistic. "Realistic" is just way of conforming to the situation around you, of changing yourself to fit with the flow. To be realistic is to keep yourself from fully trying to achieve your true potential. Was Edison being realistic when he invented the electric bulb? I think not. But still he did, and how everyone celebrates that success now.
So what we need to do, is to stop. Just stop whatever you're doing, and inhale. Breathe.
And then imagine.
Imagine yourself achieving all your goals, ALL of it. Even the most impossible ones. The secret dreams you have of being an astronaut? Your fifteen-year-old plan to be a landscape artist and design the most amazing park on earth? Your clandestine desire to speak eight different languages?
Imagine the ways you can go about it. If you can't, then think harder. "Impossible" or "i'm not meant for that" are merely limiting conditions that you set upon yourself, and they can most certainly disappear if you should chose so. It really is that simple, believe it or not.
Each of us are meant for great things, and you don't have to have a photographic memory, or be quick at maths, or know how to draw, to have awesome things stored in your future. And that is the reality of it all. Remember the lyrics, look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours? Think about it.
Why are you stopping yourself?
Be awesome always.The world is but a canvas to the imagination.
Henry David Thoreau
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