Peace

The past week has been crazy, and i think it is needless for me to announce that i just might be incapable of updating this site regularly anymore =( but then again i might be speaking too soon -- maybe i just need to get a little more adapted to the crazy hours of my college life.

(Perfection by Murrrzilka)

So yeah, i've started college. Straight out of camp and into college. I still want to blog about national service -- or what i've managed to get out of it -- before i forget it all, but i can barely find the time or patience to sit down and draw my thoughts out in this space. I expected college life to be full of free time and fun, but as it turns out, the course i signed up for...not so much.

In the past five days, i have had approximately 30 hours of sleep. Another 30 hours was spent being in class -- yes i'm doing A Levels -- and the remaining free hours were spent on the road, being thrilled, excited, worried, happy, vain, and just plain tired. More than once -- when in the far too early hours of classes -- i have questioned the reason as to why i am doing what i'm doing.

Why am i here? Why did i fight so hard to do A Levels? What am i doing?

And i have regretted, but it is true that everything falls into place. I see that now. Everything is perfect now, and i am here BECAUSE i chose to. I insisted on A Levels BECAUSE i knew very well that it was perhaps the only way i could use to get what i want. I am here to devote all my energy into being my most amazing self.

A few weeks back i got called to an interview for a scholarship, one that -- if within my grasp -- would solve most of my problems. This scholarship would put in my hands several hundreds of thousands of ringgit worth of education in the country of my choice. It was a basket of golden eggs. It was THE opportunity. Today the results came out, and i found that i didn't get it.

To my surprise, i wasn't disappointed.

I was okay. I felt nothing. And this Nothingness confused me, because surely i should be feeling something. Disappointment? Frustration? Exasperation? Or relief, even, because not getting the scholarship would mean that i will not have to uproot myself from this college life that i am already settling into. But i felt none of that, nothing at all. I tried to decide on a certain emotion to feel, but then caught myself and realized that really, it doesn't matter how i feel about not acquiring the scholarship.

The point is that i didn't get it. And it's fine. All is well. All is good. Life may prove to be hard right now, but this is the path that i have chosen, and i can most definitely get out of here anytime i want to, but i will not, because this is where i want to be.

Why I Love SuperForest

Because the random lovely stuff they come up with just resonates with positivity.

And i agree with Jackson. You HAVE beautiful eyes :)

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Zee Avi

If you are Malaysian and you STILL don't know who Zee Avi is, then shame on you! After all, she's only the very one Malaysian girl who got signed on by Brushfire Records, a label partially owned by Jack Johnson.

Bitterheart

 

Honey Bee

First of the Gang To Die

So i was one of the lucky couple of thousand people who got to catch her live in KL on Saturday -- her first performance here since she made it in the States :) her voice is amazing, and her character so absolutely endearing -- it wasn't long before the crowd fell in love with her. It was lovely, watching a perfectly awesome performance from a girl who spoke exactly like how we Malaysians do.

Halfway through her performance, she called her dad up onstage ;) introduced him, and someone in the audience shouted "hi, uncle!" Well, it's probably just me, but the concert had a really personal feel to it. Maybe because i was right in the front and center -- or maybe because she's Malaysian.

Lovely <3

There's a flip side to everything.

Goood day, people!

~And nothing is ever as it seems, yes, life is but a dream.~

In just 2 and a half minutes, Derek Sivers shows how the opposite of things that seem right may not exactly be wrong, either.

:)

We Are the World 25 for Haiti

I know that i am SO late with posting this, but i only just saw it. It has already garnered 24 million views, but i thought i would share it anyway =P

~Nou se mond la, nou se timoun yo.~

Directed by Paul Haggis and executively produced by Wyclef Jean, Lionel Richie and Quincy Jones -- as a follow up to the original one by Michael Jackson created 25 years ago. Back then, the song was recorded to benefit famine relief in Africa. This time, it's for the earthquake victims in Haiti. Featuring artists such as Jennifer Hudson, Pink, Celine Dion, Josh Groban, Jamie Foxx and eighty others (including the incredible Jason Mraz), watching this video gave me the chills.

Social awareness made fun! Awesome!

Three Little Birds

Happy March 11, everybody!

Today would be the 70th day of the year, and instead of reflecting on how time has flown, i'll just sit back and enjoy the flow. Join me? :)

amazing picture comes from (source) -- let's just chill.

There are 295 more days remaining till 2010 ends. How will you use these 295 days? How many of these 295 days will you spend being your most amazing self? Which of these 295 days will you spend being love, being fulfilled, being kind? Might i so bold as to suggest -- all of it?

Today, the SPM results for all 2009 Form Five students will be released. I can already foresee the tears (of joy? devastation?) that will roll. Housing a mechanism that helps me expect the worst to keep from being (too sorely) disappointed, i have been preparing myself for the lousiest results ever -- and to balance that out, reading some FAIL quotes to keep me going;

so here it is, for whatever will be, will be.

• A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery while on a detour. -unknown

• Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better. -Samuel Beckett

• Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm. -Winston Churchill

• Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed. -Corita Kent

• For every failure, there's an alternative course of action. You just have to find it. When you come to a roadblock, take a detour. -Mary Kay Ash

• Don't worry about a thing, cause every little thing is gonna be all right. -Bob Marley

 
Have an awesome March 11, everybody!

PS22 Chorus -- Empire State of Mind

The PS22 Chorus' take on the song Empire State of Mind by Jay-Z & Alicia Keys.

I already had this song on repeat, but these kids just made me love the song even more. See the way they lose themselves in the music as they sing -- there's something quite so enchanting about the way they harmonize with each other so spiritedly.

Absolute love!

Interesting facts (for laughs)

1. If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

(Hardly seems worth it)

2. If you fart consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.

(Now that's more like it)

3. A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes.

(In my next life I want to be a pig)

(How'd they figure this out, and why?)

4. Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.

(Still can't get over that pig thing)

(Don't try this at home...maybe at work?)

5. Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.

(Is that why Flipper was always smiling?)

(And pigs get 30-minute orgasms? Doesn't seem fair)

6. The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.

(Hmmmmmmmmm........)

7. Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people do.

(If you're ambidextrous do you split the difference?)

8. The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its own weight and always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.

(From drinking little bottles of...?)

(Did taxpayers pay for this research??)

9. Polar bears are left handed.

(Who knew....? Who cares? How'd they find out, did they ask them?)

10. The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.

(What can be so tasty on the bottom of the pond?)

11. The flea can jump 350 times its body length.

It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.

(30 minutes...can you imagine?? And why pigs?)

12. A cockroach will live nine days without it's head, before it starves to death.

(Creepy)

13. The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.

(Honey, I'm home. What the....)

(Well, at least pigs get a break there...)

14. Some lions mate over 50 times a day.

(In my next life I still want to be a pig ... quality over quantity)

15. Butterflies taste with their feet.

(Oh, Geez) (That's almost as bad as catfish)

16. An ostrich's eye is bigger than it's brain.

(I know some people like that.)

17. Starfish don't have brains.

(I know some people like that too.)


The funny part is not so much from the facts, but the wise cracks.

Have an awesome day!

(source)

Modern News

Oh lolol, SuperForest just updated about this video. It's really funny! The deadpan faces are a total riot!

Braving it out

I have always been attracted to the idea of piercing your (ear) cartilage. There's no other way for me to describe this notion other than that i find it superbly cool. Unfortunately, my dreams were crushed when the one whom i confided this to told me that it hurts really bad when you pierce that spot.

Apparently. You'd be poking a hole in your bone.

MOREOVER. Someone actually went blind after piercing his cartilage once? The horrors. When i'd heard, i laid off the dream for a while, until i went to high school and saw numerous people with piercings all over their ears. And they weren't blind!

My amazing friend who decided to accompany me in my pain, also terrified. :D

So anyway, the idea has been playing around in my head for a while, and after deciding that i couldn't be so lucky as to go blind just by piercing my cartilage, i went for it.

And got two piercings on the cartilage.

On each ear.

Yes. *thumbs up* It's all still awesome.

What i did was, i went to a store in a mall and got it done with a gun. Which i have just found out is extremely bad, actually, because apparently the gun can shatter your cartilage (!!!). My ear's still fine (now) though.

Basically, what people say on the forums are :
- never get it done with a gun (can't be sterilized).
- always go for the needle. At professional places.

I did neither. I promise to keep you posted if my ear starts mutating.

As for what i was so terrified about, it surprisingly didn't hurt that much. My imagination distorted my perspectives so much that i imagined the pain to be so intense that i'd go into shock or die on the spot, or something. According to the wise ones on forums, though, this all varies with the person's pain tolerance :) for me, it hurt just about as much as a lobe piercing would hurt, which is pretty much still tolerable.

Would this be a bad way to reinvent myself? I think not :) i'm glad i went ahead and did it anyway.

No regrets! Question of the day -- what fears borne by your mind will you challenge today?

With joy,
J

What not to do...

...when you're dying hair, is NEVER let your bare skin touch the dye.

I mean, you probably already knew this, if you read the instructions like i did not do. Or if you have common sense. Or if you're not lazy.

If you DO want to know how your hand turns out, though, then here's to satisfying your curiosity.

My fingers are officially disgusting :D they'll be so embarrassed to show their face at class tomorrow... Oh well.

On another note, the best part about being Malaysian is....

Ice cream potong!!

Durian flavor!!!!!!

Awesome!